The Write Cycle
Lately, I have been feeling once again the urge to write. I don't know if any of you (whoever is reading this) share a similar cycle to this one. I write something. Literally, it could be anything - a few lines of a poem, a paper, a blog. Then, a sense of satisfaction and greater knowing of myself and (most importantly) God settles within me. This feeling, this sense that I am coming closer to God by unwrapping hidden thoughts inside of me, is one of my greatest delights.
Yet, I continue to shy away from it. "It takes too much thought, too much time," my brain says, "and what's the point of spending time 'working' when I could be relaxing?" My heart then proceeds to have it's moment of gloom and sadly hangs its head. You see, the two often don't agree. It turns into a terrible tug-of-war at times. Anyway, the weight of loss (because I did lose something - even if I never gained it, the thing was still inside waiting to come out) eventually goes away and I forget about it. But here is where the cycle bit comes in. Sooner or later, I feel that urge again. Sometimes it comes in life's quiet, mundane moments. Sometimes the pull comes during a sermon, or the topic comes up in a discussion with someone. Sometimes it comes when I feel very alone. Regardless of when, the part that interests me is that it continues to come at all. It's as if God designed me to write with the intention that I would become closer to Him. When I want to write, well, the feeling IS similar to desiring God. Something of the divine.
But I am lazy. God wants me to produce in this area and experience life through writing, but I haven't been. I do want to. That's why I created a blog. It's an open space where I can document my thoughts instead of having them scattered about or lost. God wants me to write - I don't really know what about. He just says, "Pray and write. Worship Me."
If I asked Him why, He'd probably reply, "Because I love you. I've hidden secret springs to refresh you and bring you life in your writing. It's an adventure I made for you."
He made writing for many people - perhaps it's for you. Regardless of what God made for you, I hope you find it. I hope you enjoy it. And I hope it brings you closer to Him. God bless.
Yet, I continue to shy away from it. "It takes too much thought, too much time," my brain says, "and what's the point of spending time 'working' when I could be relaxing?" My heart then proceeds to have it's moment of gloom and sadly hangs its head. You see, the two often don't agree. It turns into a terrible tug-of-war at times. Anyway, the weight of loss (because I did lose something - even if I never gained it, the thing was still inside waiting to come out) eventually goes away and I forget about it. But here is where the cycle bit comes in. Sooner or later, I feel that urge again. Sometimes it comes in life's quiet, mundane moments. Sometimes the pull comes during a sermon, or the topic comes up in a discussion with someone. Sometimes it comes when I feel very alone. Regardless of when, the part that interests me is that it continues to come at all. It's as if God designed me to write with the intention that I would become closer to Him. When I want to write, well, the feeling IS similar to desiring God. Something of the divine.
But I am lazy. God wants me to produce in this area and experience life through writing, but I haven't been. I do want to. That's why I created a blog. It's an open space where I can document my thoughts instead of having them scattered about or lost. God wants me to write - I don't really know what about. He just says, "Pray and write. Worship Me."
If I asked Him why, He'd probably reply, "Because I love you. I've hidden secret springs to refresh you and bring you life in your writing. It's an adventure I made for you."
He made writing for many people - perhaps it's for you. Regardless of what God made for you, I hope you find it. I hope you enjoy it. And I hope it brings you closer to Him. God bless.
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